Recently I thought back to how ‘secondary’ I am. A friend of mine rang my sister when she was in the area, to chat to her. That friend doesn’t call me. My mother does what my sister tells her and yet does nothing that I suggest. My brother gave my daughter a hug when he saw her recently but said I don’t get one.
I closed my share trading accounts because not everything I do prospers. Even God doesn’t view me as good enough to prosper the work of my hands. I’ve been making pocket money from trading for years, but not lately. And that’s how I felt yesterday evening.
In the morning’s, most mornings, I wake at 4 still even though I’m not at work anymore. It’s a time where I particularly enjoy uninterrupted bible study. This morning I asked God a question; Now that Mum’s moved (as I was helping care for her), what does He have in stall for me? I also pondered my position in life, that of being secondary, where I feel I'm just not good enough for anyone at times.
My girls love me. Outside of that, I don’t know what it is I’m lacking. I can’t fix what I don’t know.
My first question; that of being secondary and what to do about it: My bible study from the Word for Today (Feb 3) just happened to say; When Christ said well-done faithful servant, He didn’t say brilliant servant, or popular servant. He was talking about those who often go unnoticed. No trumpets, no banners, no applause. He was talking about those who show up, day after day. Those unnoticed by people. Those who shun the limelight and are happy to be in the shadows. Those who run the race, who don’t stop until the finish line.
To those who may not think I make much of a difference, God does. To others I may not have a great skill set or be terribly successful, God however, measures me by my faithfulness. So I'm way up there in His books.
To my second question (What does He have in stall for me now?), the following reading in the Word for Today (Feb 4) stated; I get to choose my comfort or my calling. When Terah went with Abram, he stopped in his place of comfort within a city of wealth, education and idols. Abram chose to continue on and say ‘yes’ to his calling.
As circumstances change and seasons of life progress one has to either step into the unknown with God, or settle for security in what you know. You need to make the decision; choose your calling or your comfort.
How interesting is it that both questions were answered consecutively?
My theory is; I could get a job in town and do what I know (be stressed and run to someone else’s time clock), or I could continue living my dream. Sometimes I think how I don’t have fancy shoes or bags, I never have my hair or nails done, I don’t have much ‘stuff’ and it’s because I’ve always had that broken income. Sometimes this has been bad luck more than choice, other times I’ve chosen to work less and make more time for God. When ‘living the dream,’ it’s hard to settle for a 9 to 5.
So, the dream may not be affluence or influence, but it is a life of prosperity in its own way.
I wrote recently: When you enter the Word of life, join with the Spirit of life, swim in the River of life, soak in the Stream of life, drink from the Water of life, eat from the Tree of life, eat the Bread of life, drink the Blood of life and live with the Creator of life, it stands to reason; the only possible outcome is – a plentiful life.
At the beginning in Genesis, when Adam fell, angelic security was placed around the tree of life so no one could eat of its fruit. At the end, Revelation speaks of angels allowing those who have washed their robes in the blood of the Lamb to approach the tree of life and eat of its fruit once more.
The tree representing healing, life-long wisdom and abundance. According to some, this comes back the 12 fruits of the spirit which I wrote in my previous blog post Soak in the Stream. The number 12 is significant as it symbolises God’s power and authority, as well as completeness. It may well be worth your while to look up and read the biblical meaning of the number 12.
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